You want to know what the most frustrating thought is?
It's the fact that I had always thought people who [ insert phrase I can't seem to be able to type here ] were just doing it for attention, attention seeking. But I suppose I now know that more than usually isn't the case. People do it because they slip into a dark place and they don't know how to get out and that's the easiest escape - I know that now.
The even more frustrating thing?
You thought the same thing as me. You probably still think the same thing.
And, anyway, thinking about it more... I've always done this shit.
I remember standing in the office of my head teacher when I was in school. He was shouting at me for something that's not so important now. My hands were behind my back and I was digging my nails into my wrist, drawing blood. I've always done that. Whenever I was in trouble and had done something wrong. Hands behind my back and nails digging into my skin.
None of this probably makes any sense. Just feels better to get it out of my head.
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