Wednesday, 11 July 2012

Lost & Found


Reeeeally love this part of the book:

He descended the plane steps, forward to seeing Gina. Trying not to look exhausted. Trying to look as if he was eager for this visit to begin.
Gina wasn’t in the small bunch of waiting people. Instead... His heart sank. Georgie. Georgie Turner.
He’d hoped she’d left town by now. What Gina saw in this...tramp, he didn’t know.
‘Hey, Alistair.’ She waved and yelled as he crossed the tarmac.
She was chewing gum. She was wearing tight leather pants and bright red stilettos. She had on a really tight top – so tight it was almost indecent. She was all in black. The only colour about her was the slash of crimson on her lips, her outrageous shoes and two spots of colour on her cheeks.
‘How’s it going, Al?’ she said, and chewed a bit more gum.
‘Fine,’ he said, trying to be polite and not quite succeeding. ‘Where’s Gina?’
‘See, she was expecting you yesterday. So today she and Cal are running a clinic out on Wallaby Island. The weather’s getting up so they thought they ought to go when they could.’
‘You couldn’t have taken her place?’
‘Hey, I deliver babies. Gina’s the heart lady. There’s not a lot of crossover. You got bags?’
‘One. Yes.’
She sniffed, in a way that said real men didn’t need baggage. She turned and headed for the baggage hall, her very cute butt wiggling as he walked behind her.
It was some butt.
Ok, that’s what he couldn’t allow himself to think. That was what had landed him into trouble in the first place. She was a tart. Somehow she’d gained a medical degree but, not matter, she was still a tart.
But even so, he shouldn’t have tried to pick her up.
Now they stood side by side at the luggage carousel, waiting for his bag. It took for ever. There were other doctors there from the plane.
‘There’s some other wedding happening here,’ he ventured for something to say, and Georgie nodded, looking at the baggage carousel as if it was she who’d recognise his bag.
‘Yep. One this Saturday, one next. Planned so those going to both needn’t make two trips. We were starting to think they’d be no guests for the first one.’
‘It’s some storm down south,’ he said reflectively. ‘That’s how I met these guys. The trip from New Zealand should have been cancelled. We hit an air pocket and dropped what felt like a thousand feet.’ Anyone who wasn’t belted in was injured.’
‘You got called on as a doctor?’
‘A bit. I was asleep at first.’
‘Off duty,’ she said blankly, and he winced. There was no criticism in her voice. It was a simple statement of fact, but she knew how to hurt. When he’d woken to discover the chaos he’d felt dreadful. He’d helped, but other doctors had been more proactive than him.
‘Look, I-’
‘It this your bag? It must be. Everyone else has theirs.’
‘It’s mine,’ he said, and she strode forward and lugged it off the conveyor belt before he could stop her. She set it up on its wheels and tugged the handle, then set it before him. Making him feel even more wimpish.
‘Right,’ she said. ‘My wheels are in the carpark.’
‘Your car?’
‘My wheels.’ She was striding through the terminal, talking to him over her shoulder. He was struggling to keep up.
He was feeling about six years old.
‘Hey, Georg.’ People were acknowledging her, waving to her, but she wasn’t stopping. She was wearing really high stilettos but still walking at a pace that made him hurry. She looked like something out of a biker magazine. A biker’s moll?
Not quite, for her hair was closely cropped and cute - almost classy. The gold hooped earrings actually looked great. She was just...different.

- 'THEIR LOST AND FOUND FAMILY' BY MARION LENNOX

All About Male Privilege


Someone wrote a post entitled "all about male privilege" - a post about "how guys have it easy", and I somewhat disagree with the main points of her post.

Not that I don't think guys have it easy... Biologically, anatomically, physically they do. In my opinion.

The male privilege is...
- Not having to have a uterus that refreshed every month.
- Not having to go through the love / lust ordeal of losing their virginity
- Not going through the skin ripping pain that is child birth and the horrible side effects that come before that when pregnant
- Not going through menopause and dealing with yet more hormone imbalances and hot flushes

But her points were ridiculous stupid.

Her post results in pointing out stereotypical characteristics such as: "Male privilege is feeling entitled to go up and talk to a woman about anything while anywhere at any time, even if they haven't expressed any interest, and continue onward despite a lack of a response."

Really? Is that what male privilege is?

Flip the gender roles around and the same can be said of women.

This is sexism at its finest, written by a bunny boiling mad woman.

Tuesday, 29 May 2012


I remember one of the "therapy" sessions that I had where my "therapist" asked me ten questions (in which I was obviously supposed to answer truthfully).

For some reason, they've popped into my mind again and I keep thinking about them (possibly because maybe I would answer differently know?).

The questions were (and i'm paraphrasing here since my memory is a little sketchy):
1. What is more difficult for you: looking into someones eyes when you are telling them how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel?
2. Think of the last time you were really angry. Why were you angry? Do you still feel the same way?
3. You are at the doctor's office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone / everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days? Would you be afraid?
4. You can have one of the following things: love or trust. Which do you choose and why?
5. Would you rather be hurt by the one you trust the most or the one you love the most?
6. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose?
7. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them? Who were they to you?
8. Are you the kind of friend that you would want as a friend?
9. Does love equal sex?
10. When was the last time you honestly told someone how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say? Who was it? What did you have to tell the person?

Most of these questions were really hard to answer, some of them were easy. Most of them were just pure bullshit and relate to nothing, in my opinion, to my situation.

Thinking of these questions, and how I answered, I think I would change some things. Maybe 'cause I think i've mellowed a lot since that time, maybe 'cause I feel more like Eliza, maybe 'cause i'm just giving up. I don't know. It's just frustrating me thinking about these damn questions and how i'd answer them now.

Monday, 21 May 2012


I don’t understand why tampon adverts always show girls on their period dancing and wearing white skirts and making out with someone and stuff.

Surely a more effective advertising campaign would be a bunch of girls in various states of misery.

Like, curled over in bed going "WHHHHY?!" and eating chocolate on the sofa and sobbing at the end of 'The Notebook' and getting angry at not being able to open a jar and crying when the cat doesn’t want to cuddle.

Followed by: ‘We understand. We’re sorry. Let us make it a little less awful.’

And the wrapping shouldn’t be like pink with polka dots, it should be dinosaurs stepping on buildings and stuff.

Friday, 16 March 2012

A List Of Thinkings I Should Remember

  1. time heals
  2. the sunrise is constant
  3. salt water stings
  4. i am worth all of it
  5. driving calms
  6. the music will never end
  7. books finish (sometimes happily)
  8. locked doors can be unlocked
  9. trees produce oxygen
  10. i produce carbon dioxide
  11. stars die all the time
  12. the sun burns

Saturday, 3 March 2012

The injuries I cause myself...

Tuesday, 17 January 2012

Bad Karma, Bad Dream

Yesterday, I had a bad experience with a smear test -- yes, I know, i'm cursed with bad luck and bad karma. But last night I dreamed about it...more like a nightmare.

Basically, in my nightmare, the gynecologist told me that i'll not be able to ever have kids and Chris broke up with me for that fact and everyone basically treated me like I was an outcast...

UGH, WHY DO I DREAM SO MUCH?!